MOOD'S WINGS 6:Don't know what this is :/

Okay last i checked
My life was picture perfect
But man somethin must have changed
I feel like i need somethin else
N no i cant tell u what it is
Cos shit's a drain to explain
I don know what is amiss
aint no source to this pain
in over my head in this
N you sure think i'm deep
when i only showed this iceberg's peak
N i shan't speak
Cos on the outset this all seems sweet
But the *STORY* eventually
'Crumbles down like titanic'
So why lay a foundation
Why 'build a bridge'
I'm already 'at your side'
Wont let you fall for this
Word to em love is evil
Need an exorcist
Look what it almost did
Transformed an apathetic
Into a pathetic
Or maybe somethin's wrong
with my analysis
Pray i'm just a 'dyslexic'
its all simple,not this complex shit
But then again i've never been a conformist
But 'takes two to confirm this'
So i cant really judge,you wantin this
This haunted bliss
dismissed signs as co coincidences
but they're far too many
n m not cookin up things
But another hit me
As i was jottin this
But gotsta get me-off of this
My soul needs ta breathe out of my skin
Wonder whether she cud help me
If she cud step in my kicks
N look at herself n see what i see
No skin,a heartbeat,,halo n wings
Not overstatin things
But it is...what it is
Just dont know what it is
Hopin this fog'll lift
n yeaahh a moment of clarity

*STOREY

MOOD'S-WINGS 5

I'm feelin so distant
my reflection is panoramic,
soul's missin'
angels tryna revive me
but i dont believe-em
rather don believe in em
almost hopin for a treason
to give me a reason
to sit assured-they really demons
signed a treaty with my inner demons
to haunt me only when a n*gga dreamin
but fuckers tricked me,n m forever sleepin
yeah those who know me stand testimony
cos i don know homie
i feel like that god damn CONSTANTINE
mean,i constantly
just see evil in a person next to me
subconsicously
i just don see PROS
only the CONS hit me
like friends be all exterior-phoney
with ulterior motives just connin' me
so before i fall for love
my heart's absconding me

MOOD'S-WINGS 4

Fourth year still tryna adjust
i find the more i try ta change
the more i wont budge
tryna find a foothold
but m kneedeep in this sludge
this world,im done tryna judge
people sweeter than fudge
some closer than blood,
relations,but soon as our back's turned
they show their *TRUE BLOOD
too immersed in this bloodthirst
usin knives carved from words
was a naive,heart of love
till my mind called your bluff
sometimes you need an arm to clutch
like feel that warmth of touch
not amorous,shit's far from lust
cos for what it's worth
you realize this world,
aint worth your while
cos people covered in facades
n you find your feelings,are one sided
somethin like love at first sight
cos you don really get to know em
your best of friends will 'do a shogun'
your 'partner' will do you like 'hogan'
hell yeah i'm frozen,
but cold world n wind's blowin
windbreaker's notepad,
n thermometer's my ball pen
cos it tells me that i'm HOT
n i turn to it when im sickened
not lyrically,
but from the shit that i witness
not carvin a niche,
this is my existence
cos a writer's thoughts
r really a glitch in the matrix
n his teardrops,is the ink in his pages
he's breathin rhymes,
his ears inhale n he exhales from his hands
he writes with n to his best friend-
his 'pen pal'
me i aint that complex,man
i keep it simple
keep shit in my head n
act like a thoughtless man
look at the world like a spotless scam
cos me,i am an exception
friendship is deception
caz on doin an assessment
i found their emotions
were MY OWN PERCEPTIONS
**fading out**
n shit was a turn off
like cold water on erections
fake laughs,
i feel like a voter at elections

**fades out**

*True blood~that HBO vampire series...here means...bloodsuckin backstabbers
**HULK HOGAN's wife cheated on him :)